Thursday, February 26, 2009

I went from musty to musky and y'all cant mush me

So I've been dealing with a long list of things that are not good lately, and despite all that, schoolwork and other things keep coming.  So I need something to lift me up out of the uncomfortable muddling dreck that my life tends to be these days...and what better way to do that than by also sharing with people? After all, we are all having to deal with a winter that won't go away, and finals and papers and midterms that are either breathing down our neck or biting off our heads.  So here's a little music mix that I made, composed of songs that make me a happy, dancey, not-focused-on-moping person.  And even though listening to the music doesn't make my life not difficult or sucky, at least it makes it tolerable in a nice way, like breaking your leg and then sitting on a really comfy couch to rest.  Anyway, it's a decent mix of hip-hop, soul, pop, and some older stuff.  Enjoy, it's free!

Up-ish Music
01.  Chelsea Morning (Joni Mitchell)
02.  I Gotcha (Lupe Fiasco)
03.  Where D'You Go? (Jamie Lidell)
04.  Reach Out, I'll Be There (The Four Tops)
05.  Benton Harbor Blues Again (The Fiery Furnaces)
06.  (The Angels Wanna Wear My) Red Shoes (Elvis Costello)
07.  Homecoming (Kanye West ft. Christ Martin)
08.  Cool To Love Your Family (Feist)
09.  This Is Not A Test (She & Him)
10.  Get On The Good Foot (James Brown)
11.  D.A.N.C.E. (Justice)
12.  Sausalito (Conor Oberst)
13.  Dream (Dizzee Rascal)
14.  Say Hello To The Angels (Interpol)
15.  Sadie (Joanna Newsom)
16.  Doo Wop (That Thing) (Lauryn Hill)
17.  Untitled (The Fiery Furnaces)

Here's the download link ------------> SendSpace

Monday, February 23, 2009

in SO many ways!

I tend to enjoy most of what Married to the Sea/Natalie Dee/Toothpaste for Dinner has to offer, but this has a special place for me:

Friday, January 30, 2009

Progress

So I am four months away from graduating, and I gotta say, it has been a long and interesting road. But I came across a picture of my from my first year that helps more to explain what happened to me; so here's a retrospective of my wacked-out face with sometimes stupid hair over the past four years, complete with my rating of it on a 1-10 scale:

First Semester, First Year (September 2005)
Rating: 2/10. The HIGHLIGHTS. The stupid Myspace angle. The shirt. What shirt is that? Did I own that? why does one eye look like it's being sucked into my brain?

Second Semester, First Year (March 2006)
Rating: 7/10. This is actually a decently hot picture of me, despite the lip ring, the auburn hair dye, and the off-the-shoulders shirt. And my paleness, which doesn't go away. Actually, you know what, 6/10.

End of Second Semester/Summer, First Year (May 2006)
Rating: 6/10. Okay, so again we have the shirt thing going on, plus my over-decorated first-year dorm room. But then again, it is Sally Bowles hair, which was a fun, if short-lived time spent on my head. And someone else did my makeup, so it wasn't that bad.

First Semester, Second Year (September 2006)
Rating: 4/10. By this point I should have realized that this was an awful angle for my eyes, as the right one seems to be gravitating into my nose. My skin looks horrible, and my hair is the kind of limp that means that, when this picture had been taken, it had been more than 18 hours since I'd showered, and there's a good inch of forehead that seems blank and afraid and alone. Makeup, Meg. Wear it.

Second Semester, Second Year (February 2007)
Rating: 7/10. True, I've got Boston in the background, but as far as the mop top look goes, I didn't look that bad... the bangs are a decent length, the color doesn't look like a sad version of red-violet, and I'd finally learned how to put makeup on my face. Also, I'm starting to look older than the high school version of myself.

End of Second Semseter, Second Year (April 2007)
Rating: 5/10. Here's a perfect example of when the mop top look goes wrong: my hair naturally parts on the left, which means that all that hair goes falling down over my right eye, and I look very, very destitute. Also: cap sleeves? No, thank you. And no points for being in black and white.

First Semester, Third Year (October 2007):
Rating: 7/10. I think that it was shortly after this that I stopped wearing the lip stud. Ok, so my hair is short but even, and though I've got high bangs they don't look as bad as they did earlier. Also, my faceis painted, which means that I was a Cool Person.

Second Semester, Third Year (March, 2008):
Rating: 7/10. Well, this is a step in the right direction: I'm in Paris, I'm wearing a beret-type hat, I'm sketching and drinking wine in a café. Hell yeah. Of course, I look sort of old-lesbian-y as well, but not so much that it's terrible. This is evidence of something rather garish: how my bangs, having gotten long and heavy, tend to fall in pieces, making my hair look thin and unhealty. I still deal with this today.

First Semester, Fourth Year (November, 2008):
Rating: 8/10 Finally, I'm facing the other direction!! It seems that I have finally mastered what a pixie cut should look like on me. Short, layered, not too long around the ears. Also, it's my birthday and I have a Manhattan! It should be pointed out at this point that, with the exception of two pictures, all of these haircuts I did myself. Propers.

Second Semester, Fourth Year (January 2009):
Rating: 9/10. Well hello, confident. I think that I've reached a good in-between for the longish hair and the pixie hair, and along the way I accidentally dyed it black, which turned out better than I expected it to. My makeup looks pretty nice now, my skin was really good then (it got worse in the past week), and I'm thinner and more fit than I was first year. How can that girl at the top possibly be the same as this person here?

The answer to that is the mystery that everyone must ponder when they leave their University.

Monday, January 19, 2009

So many bullets you'd think it was Feb 14, 1929

I really want to get in the habit of waking up earlier on weekdays so that I can make breakfast. I heart eggs, though every time I try to make an omelette it comes out scrambled, which probably just means that I don't have skills. But soft-poached eggs are great, and tea and coffee is great, and as soon as I get my own address I think that having a newspaper on the table with breakfast will also be great.

You know what else is great? Booze. Here are the cocktails and martinis I love:

  • Manhattan
  • Gin and Tonic
  • Gin and Ginger Ale
  • Jack and Coke
  • Margarita (on ice, not crushed)
  • Scotch and Soda
  • Dirty Martini
  • Irish Coffee
Bourbon is possibly my favorite kind of straight alcohol. Maker's Mark on the rocks, if you will, yes thank you. I also love gin, but drinking it straight is ridiculous. I will do tequila shots, though, if you all were wondering.

I know that you were.


Anyway, this is just to say that I just got a Twitter account this evening, in a bout of sickness and boredom. So far I'm enjoying it, the randomness of the whole deal is fun, and it's always nice to customize things.


So that's just a little more organization in my life.

Places where I am online
  • Blogger
  • Facebook
  • Twitter
  • DeviantArt

What are these places for? Blogger is for long-winded thoughts. Facebook is for, like, my face and personality. Twitter is for random blurbs (tweets? I'm not calling them that) and pretending that I am friends with Barack Obama, and DeviantArt is for all my art things (and none of my deviousness, there's nothing really devious about the place). Aside from that, I've got my own personal moleskine notebook for keeping all my random, often depressing thoughts in. And I've got miss Charlottesburg (my computer) here, which keeps all my drafts in her tummy. Er, RAM.


Things I am writing that are not dead projects:
  • Black Sheep, a graphic novel script about immortals who are the leftovers of bygone mythologies trying to get by in the modern world
  • The Tiger-Eye (working title), a fantasy/speculative fiction novel about a world where witches are real and face persecution
  • Secret of a Clockwork Mouse, a magical realist novel about a female magician in the 1920s
  • The Archer Almanac, an ongoing project of 365 stories about a small town in the United States
Each of these is still in their growing stages. Honestly, I need a retreat, somewhere with no internet access, no friends or people to talk to, no television. Just me and these four projects, so that I can finish at least two of them before the year is out. I know that I always say that, but I'm graduating, so it will be important to get to the point of being published.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

And your writer's block, it do't mean shit

So the obligatory what-I-got-for-Decemberween:

-camera
-boots
-moleskine journals
-purse
-blouse
-sweater
-e.e. cummings
-symbol book
-two decks of blank playing cards
-makeup
-sharpie 4-pack
-camera bag
-candy
-the dark knight
-card deck of cocktail recipes
-threadless shirt
-watch
-socks
-4 bottles of unibroue

um that's all i can remember for right now! i think that's it. go me. i also gave some pretty sweet-ass gifts, if i don't mind sayin' so meself. the best part is that they can all fit in a suitcase! aw yiss!

the blank cards and sharpies, by the way, are for the tarot deck that i am designing; hopefully it'll be done by january.

(what a useless post, right?)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

I know this is an odd phrase, but the facts were these. These were the facts.

Let's just say that, in regard to this season of Pushing Daisies, I am suddenly both pleasantly surprised and surprisingly pleased. Though I haven't watched the entire series yet, just the first two or three and then the last few that are online at abc.com, I've found a suitable flavor to wash out the funky taste that the first impression had left in my mouth. Perhaps its because I know that it's been canceled after this season, but it looks like they've dropped the silliness and terrible CGI and added in a few nice twists and turns. Yeah, a lot of it is a bit too coincidental (I don't want to spoil anything, but I will say that the season's two themes are Family and Trust, and that they crop up in obvious but well-intended ways. However, if this series ends without resolving the problems with trust and happiness surrounding one Olive Snook, then I will be seriously upset. I was going to make a list called Five Things To Love About Pushing Daisies That Are Not Lee Pace, but it would just be Olive Olive Olive Olive Olive. In fact, as great and quirky as the show is, I don't think I would like it half as much if it didn't have Kristen Chenoweth's bubble of joy bouncing around in it.

And beside that point, what happened to Digby the dog?

But since I am in the mood for list-making, here goes:


Five Things To Love About Mad Men That Are Not Don Draper And Joan Holloway



AMC's Mad Men is no longer that sleeper hit that only the cool kids talk about liking. It's the first basic cable show to take home the Best Drama Emmy, and as far as I'm concerned, it's the best show on television. Let's be fair, though, I only watch like three actual shows that are currently running, Mad Men, Pushing Daisies, and 30 Rock. Of the three, Mad Men is the most consistently pleasing, it has two solid seasons under its belt and a promising third one to come, it doesn't seem to have any sharks to jump, and for once I've found a drama that doesn't seem to guilt me into watching another episode. Mad Men goes along at a steady pace, there are no chung chungs or cliffhangers. It's a mature show, that seems to show enough respect for its audience to earn its popularity. However, when you ask someone what's so great about Mad Men, they usually come up with something like this:

Or this:


True, those are both Hot Things. And though Mad Men could easily be balanced on the perfect chin of Don Draper or the smashing curves of Joan Holloway, they are not what makes the show great. Aside, of course, from the aforementioned pacing, writing, and plot structure (especially that surrounding Don Draper, which is safe on this side of Back Story Unbelievability), here are five things that should entice you to adore the show:



5. Roger Sterling
Where Don Draper is a womanizer and a drunk, we can forgive him. I mean, look at the guy: Don's got a face that would crumble Mt. Rushmore. Then there's his awful past, his stunted creativity....there are plenty of things about Don Draper's detached personality that would point him in the direction of philanderer. If nothing else, he does it so that he can reach out to other people, understand them, dominate them, whatever. For Don Draper, there is always something going on beneath those steely eyes.

But Roger Sterling? He is just a dirty old man. And I love him for it. Where people like Don and Pete fool around in order to feel whole or accepted, Roger Sterling does so out of privilege. He is a constant drunk, makes passes at every woman he sees, chain smokes like John Wayne, all because he is just entitled to; born into wealth that he keeps afloat by relying on Don Draper's creativity and Bert Cooper's organization. I mean, the man has a heart attack from too much horsing around with a young woman, then only three years later we see him up to the same tricks, promising to marry a 20-year old secretary once he divorces his wife. Roger is the face of the so-called Greatest Generation, but seems to hold no pride at all; a man who seems to be mostly an empty shell full of smoke and booze and lies. He is detestable at the same time as he is charming, affable an unsettling at the same time; a man who is trying hard as he can to hold on to any sort of power and privilege that he has.



4. Smoking and DrinkingAh, to live in the good ol' days. Back when Bayer was just morphine, methanphetamines weren't bad yet, and everyone–everyone–smoked like a chimney and drank like a fish. Men, women, old, young, pregnant, all of them wander through the scenes holding highball glasses and lucy strikes. Even doctors light up while conducting an examination. Now I'm not saying that I am a drunk or that I am a serious smoker, but I can't deny that the idea of living in a time where you could add that much dramatic emphasis to yourself–inside, outside, on a train, plane, bus, office, restaurant–creates a different, almost alien atmosphere, where nothing was dangerous (this is best shown in the first episode, where the Mad Men must deal with the terrible new discovery that smoking -gasp!- causes cancer).


3. Betty Draper

A beautiful face can cover a seriously tainted self, and nowhere is that more true than the slowly awakening Betty Draper, wife of Don, former model, and Perfect Homemaker. Betty, with her Grace-Kelly looks and soft, laughing voice is a character that, doubtless, every woman in the neighborhood would envy. She seems oblivious to her husband's past and his infidelities, yet we learn that she knows all about the latter. She has nervous breakdowns fueled by her inability to accept the death of her mother, with whom she had a troubled, emotionally straining relationship. She often appears to be an oblivious mother, though much of that is likely to be a sign of the times. She talks about insipid things to her neighborhood group of mothers, and at first sight seems to be elitist, vain, and prejudiced; yet bit by bit this is worn away and we can start to read the lying tone in Betty's voice, and we start to understand that, in her quest to be the perfect looking woman and the perfect housewife, she has forgotten to be herself. This one thing that ties all of Mad Men's characters together: they all have work personalities, which fit them into whatever niche needs filling, then there is the person beneath that, the personality that motivates them. Betty is a great example of this because, unlike the men who can leave work and go drink or mess around in order to blow off a little steam, Betty has to work full-time as Mrs. Donald Draper–which is why her breakdown is all the more sudden and self-destructive.

2. The 1960s
The Swingin' 60s or whatever you want to call them are a tough decade to record on film. Too often do writers or directors try to Forrest Gump the whole deal, having characters in Vietnam and marching in Alabama while also being involved in, say, the Space Race and the counterculture. Mad Men succeeds because it avoids stereotyping the 60s, presenting instead what seems to be a purely honest portrayal of the early years of the decade. They don't go the predictable route and create a Feminist or an African-American character who shakes things up and changes people's hearts. Even though that was happening at the time, no doubt, that doesn't mean that every company was affected by it. In the first season the Sterling-Cooper staff is assigned to work on Nixon's campaign against Kennedy, no one questions it or stands up for JFK. Salvatore, the show's main homosexual character, is closeted and seems to be insistent on staying that way, even when a young co-worker at S.C. comes out in the break room. Counter-culture of any kind is almost completely absent. The only exception is a young Bohemian artist with whom Don has an affair in the first season. Though Don meets with her friends and fellow bohos, he takes nothing from their movement, scoffing at her boyfriend's droll "Would you like to join us? We're going to get high and listen to Miles." and their insistence on pegging him as part of "the machine". He laughs at their hopeless radicalism and leaves, content to go back to his comfortable life inside the machine. Aside from the general treatment of 60s society, Mad Men stays almost photographically true to the look of the era, down to the button. Men tend to be a little more round, and women are more curvy. Glasses are thick, hair is slick–there are no pratfalls to draw in a modern audience, Joan Holloway looks like a sex symbol despite being more curvaceous than Jessica Alba, and with good reason. Mad Men re-creates the 1960s but doesn't re-imagine it so that it can sell out to any 21st ideal, it is what it is.



1. Pete Campbell
Pete Campbell is the perfect secondary character: at first he seems like nothing more than a piece of gum stuck on Don Draper's shoe sole, part of the secondary What Everyone Else In The Office Is Doing plotline. But then time goes on and you start to see that Pete Campbell is so much more than that, he is a wad of gum with a consciousness and a desire to do right but the immaturity to keep him from knowing how. That's Pete Campbell: he is the ultimate man-child. Not the Rogen-esque "I don't want to stop playing video games and be responsible and I like poop jokes" sort of man-child, but a more complex and sympathetic sort: Pete is a little boy in man's shoes, and he is desperately trying to get his feet to grow out enough to fit them. Out of the three main male characters–Don Draper, Roger Sterling, and himself–Pete is the only one not to have fought in a war. He is a newlywed and his infidelity with Peggy is not out of desperation like Don's or Roger's, but out of a loneliness that turns into love. Pete carries a persona of the perfect man, the slick salesman with a buttery voice, but when he speaks candidly–to his family, or to Peggy–his voice is soft and almost raspy, as though he is tired of talking. He is a bundle of male insecurities and immaturity, which is what you could say for a lot of people except that Pete, like Betty Draper, rarely has an outlet for himself. He hardly has the chance; Pete is not completely immature, much of his stuntedness comes from a lack of control. He is alway under the thumb of someone else; be it his father, mother, wife, boss, father-in-law. The only person who could have that sway over him and doesn't exploit it is Peggy, who seems to be the only person that Pete cares about. At first, of course, you hate Pete Campbell. You hate his blue suit and his slick voice, his perfect hair and boyish good looks. But then you get it: under all that façade is just a little boy who wants to be a strong and independent man, but is crushed too often by the feet of everyone in his life. His struggle, though less pronounced, is much like Betty's, and I secretly watch every episode for his sake.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Christmas cleaning! Yuletide readings! Fa la la la la oh dear I'm boring.

I changed around the side bar, mostly for my own benefit. I feel all constructive all of a sudden. Also, I get to change my books into books that I don't really have to read, because except for one upcoming easy final, this semester is finito.

Anyway I've been getting in the Christmas mood lately. Well, that and I move out of this lovely hell-house on Tuesday...I swear to gosh, I have an awful landlord who seems to enjoy breathing down people's necks, and thankfully I'm getting out. I mean it's gotten so bad that I'm afraid to make myself dinner because he's always down there, ready to passively-aggressively insult me for, like, not cleaning the lint trap in the dryer. So I just stay in my room and make tea and eat cliff bars and brood. So, long story short: lots of brooding.

Don't ever live with your landlord. Just don't. He walks around in my room when I'm not here.

So that's getting over with. I'm moving further away from school, near Commercial Drive, in the most adorable basement suite (I know, right?) with only one other person. I will start cooking full meals! Of course, this means that I have to get packed up and get most of that done tomorrow, since people are coming to look at the room Saturday and Sunday. It will be fun, though! Hasta la vista, butt-for-brains.

Oh, right, the books. Well I went around thriftin', which for me means shopping for clothes but buying books. Bought my own copy of The Awakening, and then got O! Pioneers by Willa Cather which so far is lovely, Foucault's Pendulum by Umberto Eco which is pretty good so far but like smarter than I will ever be, but I like the language, and Lady Chatterly's Lover by D.H. Lawrence, which is apparently tittilating. That, and I'm re-reading The Bell Jar since it's in my Feminism class next semester, and it would be nice to find out what it was that blew my mind so much when I was 14. To be frank: The Bell Jar was integral to my coming of age. It was my "literature can be beautiful" and "god I want to write like this". It's probably what got me started into seriously considering English Literature for formal study, and one that I'll throw on my list of things that made me want to be a writer more. But honestly, I don't remember much of it.

On top of those I've got Tess of the D'Ubervilles, which I picked up at a book sale at school (fill up a bag for five bucks!), where I also got a collection of Transcendentalist essays, a history of the American South from 1800 to the Civil War, and a history of the American Fronteir. Oh, and I'm still going through Dorothy Parker's short stories.

Plus my mother is lending me Campbell's Hero With A Thousand Faces and V by Thomas Pynchon.

And I can spend two weeks of Christmas Break reading as much of that list as I possibly can. I can feel in my bones that next semester's gonna be reading-heavy, and I want to get as much me-reading time in as possible, along with me-writing time, and sleep. And work.

Man it's like I don't ever want friends.

Oh and I started working on another writing project. What.